Is this life over yet?

Its been a long time since i last blogged. I had a bit of boy drama in my life. And for a few months it was sorta kinda calm. I was talking to someone after the whole Hman thing. We got along great. We hung out almost every single day. I started to really like this bloke. He was by far the sweetest and most loveable guy I have ever met. We had our arguments, but regardless I found myself to be very selfless with him. I really enjoyed every second spent with this guy. Of course, he wasn't from around here. He was a foreigner. I seem to be attracted to foreigners. They come to this country and I feel like they need all the help possible. After living overseas, I know how difficult it can be and how much I struggled. So when they come here, I don't let them struggle. And this is exactly what I did with this guy. He never had a hard time doing anything because I was sure to help him. I felt no obligation. I was truly selfless with him. We started off as friends, and after a few weeks we realised we were attracted to one another. We started to date and we were perfect together. Then right before he left, he fucked up big time. I went into his email. I found pics of some other girl. It destroyed me. This was only 3 weeks ago. I'm still crying about this every time I think about it. Which is basically all day. Five days after I found those pics, he had to go back home. So things have been really hard for me these past few weeks. He asks for me to believe and learn to trust him again. But it's hard for me to deal with this on my own.
So two days ago I ended everything. I felt a huge relief. I felt like I could breathe. I feel a little better on my own. Being alone and knowing our relationship is over allows me to focus on ME. I don't need him to reassure me that he isn't fucking around with those girls. I'm learning to cope through this alone. And perhaps this is what I need. I just alone time. Me Time.
I started taking this MMA class (mixed martial arts) and booooooy am I in freakin' pain. My body is sore like you have no idea. MY FREAKIN' THUMB HURTS!!! MY THUMB! this was a hard core class. And the best part is...THAT NOT ONCE DID I THINK ABOUT Juventus. That's what we shall call him, Juventus. Which was great. Juventus has been on my mind for WAY TOO LONG.