Reasons

I made a list of reasons why i couldnt and wouldnt take Juventus back. I had seven reasons. I thought about them last night before i went to bed. And I prayed for God to give me guidance. I asked for God to give me a sign through my dreams.

My dream last night was weird. I dreamt that I was with a guy. Though I didn't even know the guy. He kinda took me into a cave, and I was terrified because there were a lot of bats in there. But he wrapped his arms around me and made sure I was safe. I don't know what that dream meant.

I received an sms from Juventus at 5 am this morning. He apologised for bothering me but all he wanted to tell me that the time I was taking to make my decision it was burning his heart and killing him. I know what its like to feel that way, so in a way I felt bad because its a horrible feeling to keep waiting and losing hope. But at the same time I felt better because finally he was in my shoes.

I still don't know what to do. I feel lost and confused. I need a fuckin' hobby of some sort. I hate to keep trying to put all my effort into work when 1) i HATE work! and 2) it's kinda pointless since the Queen Bee is trying to get rid of me.