Wattafeck

I'm really upset with my dream this morning. I aaaaaalways, without a doubt, think about Hman after I wake up for fajr prayer. And after I climb back into bed, I have the hardest time going back to sleep because he's on my mind and the thought of him being with someone else upsets me at that given time. But then during the day when I'm out and about the thought doesn't really bother me...not really. I guess I just don't dwell on it during the day. So this morning after fajr I had a good dream, which is why I'm upset. It's a good dream that I know won't come true. From what I remember right now, I went on holiday with my family, and Hman arrived where we were at and surprised me. I was so happy to see him. It was great. I hugged him and kissed him and he was soo happy to see me as well. I just remember being all over him because it all seemed like a dream (which it WAS!) I remember looking out a window, and seeing green freshly cut grass, beautiful houses, and a pond with a fountain in the middle. It was a beautiful scene. But I wasn't a part of it. I was inside a house looking out. And I wasn't sad as I looked out, I was pretty content.
I really don't know what these dreams are about. All I know it that I'm single. Wow..this is the longest I've ever been single. It's weird. I'm still not use to it. I REALLY have to get out there and DO something. I keep moping about this stupid love life. Which should only take up 20% of my life. I need to be more active. I should really focus on things that actually matter, and quit bitching about petty crap like this. I need to travel and meet new people. I shall! WHO'S WITH ME!?