Trying to remain hopeful...

I'm really upset. Why is Hman so difficult? He's successful as far as work goes, but sometimes I wonder whether he has ever spoken to a woman. I waited year after year in hopes that he'd feel comfortable with me and open up to me. And after 3 years he remains the same hermit he's always been. I changed. I am a great catch! Yes I will remain on my high horse!!! Because I know I am a great girl who will love to the fullest and I will be the ideal wife! All I ask in return is affection,loyalty, love, and conversation. HONESTLY, is that a lot to ask for? In exchange to the millions of things I'm willing to do?! I hate to toot my own horn but I could definitely be a great housewife, working woman, and above all a great mother. I KNOW IT!

I can't stand this half ass relationship he's been giving me. If I ever did the same, which im sure he thinks I couldnt devote myself to someone that wasn't open and straight forwarded with me. How does anyone think they deserve so much when they're not even honest and sincere with you?

And as I write this entry now, I told him "khalas". I can't stand it anymore. I've been alone for so long, and to wave around a relationship that doesn't seem to pick up, isn't what I want to tolerate anymore. I want to love. I want to be loved. I want to be in love. I want to spend my evenings with someone. I want to share laughs with someone. I do have great friends and family. No complain there! I just want to be in love. I'm not asking for much :( Or am I?